can money!!!!!!

well, we finally got some can money saved! yay! do you remember my post about having a lofty goal? i do.

Its so hard to see how things will go the first month of a budget for me. things look so easy to do and it totally works on paper........but not in real life. the budget didnt go as smoothly as i had hoped but we are getting the kinks worked out and figuring out how to put the bulk of our money in the "can". now if only i could figure out how to be an extreme couponer and save even more money.

can money feels so good. i dont ever want to touch it. but alas, i know it will have to be used eventually. i have a very specific purpose for this sweet sweet moolah. its to go towards a downpayment on another house. and then most of it will be wiped away.

part of my lofty goal is to have more than 20% down on a house in just a couple years. i havent decided if we'll buy before jays done with school or wait until after. it depends on how the basement dwelling is going. there are deffinately some days where i cannot stand to be crammed into a bedroom the way we are. and yet, my sensible side is telling me i should wait until jay graduates....or until he gets a job after he graduates :) but you know, im needin' some space! some inside space, some outside space, a kid-free space, a space for the kids to run around kinda space, a space where i can shower in peace space, a space where i dont roll over and see edynns naked butt space, a space to put all my girly soap thingies, a space that is semi quiet. i guess id just like a space of my own. and a space for my kids to be without having to feel like theyre getting mothered by everyone. and i would like to be the only mom around for a change. id honestly just like to paint a wall.

i daydream too much. and i always set huge goals for myself. but anywho, i know this whole hoarding cash thing is something that has to be chipped away at. i tend to get inpatient about things and just want stuff done now. but there are tons of things that need to happen before we can get a space of our own again while stuffing cash into that can. i guess i should focus on the baby steps. but i still think its good to daydream.