wheres my word for the year?

every year i pick a couple of words that embody either characteristics or traits that i would like to work on. some of the words in previous years have been things like "resolute" and "steadfast". but this year i have picked a phrase and a word. the phrase is, "be fearless" aaaaand the word is "vivacious".

le'me'splain. by being fearless i dont mean reckless or dumb. i mean to just get out there and do the things that i want to do but for some reason hold myself back from doing. now, back in the day going to Lagoon would be no biggie. but now i have some trepidation about it, cuz i dont want to be the fat person that has to get off the rollercoaster because i cant close the safety thingy. i know, that probaby wouldnt happen but in my present state of fatness, it might. so i am being fearless about getting into better shape a losing some weight sooooooo i can be vivacious. even more so than normal :)

i love the word vivacious. i feel that it is me. but i have gotten to the point that being truly vivacious has gotten hard and expensive. i feel like i have a ton of energy and that i can still hold onto my youth.....some way or another. driving a mini van isnt helping though. i feel like i just need to be even more fearless so i can be even more vivacious.