a.very.good.weekend..........and some spiritual stuff

hello blogging buddies.

so, shall we talk about something light hearted today? i think we should 'cuz im always ranting about my crappy job.

i would like to tell you about my trip to St. George last weekend and then onto some philosophical mumbo jumbo.

first up, st. george!!! i love southern utah! before i met the love of my life, who decided to randomly lick my face last night(just thought you all should know), i wanted to move down south. i was for sure going "down south". i had applied to dixie state college, which is now a university(good for them). and was looking into jobs and appartments. then life happened and plans were changed. i ended up staying in salt lake. but i always wanted to move there. anywho, we took the kids down there for a random weekend. it was soooo lovely and mild in the weather! we went to snow canyon and played in the dunes and let the kids climb on the rocks. we stayed in the coronada inn. dont ever stay there. it was a roach motel and gross. fork out the extra cash and stay somewhere decent. which we will be doing on our next trip down there. lesson learned. we ate and played and went swimming and went to see the temple. it was great and not nearly long enough.

secondly, some mumbo jumbo? ooh yes some mumbo please. i ask the question, which i was presented with this week on a COMPLETELY random day with a very unexpected visitor, have i been mistaking promptings with feelings? oh. so. deep. i will let you draw your own conclusions on your personal thoughts on this matter but it drew up another question for me. was i sure what an actual prompting is? i sat and pondered for a while and came to the conclusion that i have been mistaking promptings for feelings. according to me a prompting is a nudging, if you will, from the holy ghost. its not just a thought. for me, promptings are stronger than feelings. they are the sure understanding of something. nothing wishy washy about the feeling that comes from a prompting but an almost absolute assurance about something. ive had promptings in my life only a few times. and they have all been strong enough not to question but to just do.
there have also been times in my life, now that i can look back and see, that sometimes these things that i have been fixated on have not been weird neurotic "aerial things" but guidance from my Heavenly Father. some things took me in a completely different direction and honestly, i wasnt sure why certain things were happening or why i was doing certain things. just that these certain things felt right. promptings are thoughts and feelings. the strong ones for me are the ones that are offered up with such certainty that i dont question i just know, if you will. then followed by the sweet comfort of the holy ghost.
when youre 4 years old and walking out into a busy street to retrieve your ball and you hear that inflection in your mothers voice when shes yelling at you to get out of danger is kind of how i feel about it. the 4 year old doesnt question the mother. the child somply obeys because of absolute trust and love. and a response to the alarm in the mothers voice. a prompting is the inflection in my Heavenly Fathers voice to help guide me.
i have such a thick head that sometimes i need to be yelled at with such gusto so that i'll listen. i have a prompting right now in my life. almost a nagging, a dragging(kicking and screaming) into something new and different. i dont know how i feel about it. well, i know i should just obey. it may not be something i ever thought i would end up doing but i guess i should make it happen. the time is now, and all i know is that someone is waiting for me in this new endeavor and i hope i can live up to what Heavenly Father has in store for me.