well, this explains alot!

Let me start off by saying I thought I was going through menopause or depression or something. Menopause would explain the hot flashes, fatigue, cravings for food/nausea, not sleeping(or way too much sleeping), so on and so forth right? Depression would also explain fatigue, like major fatigue! Like not getting off the couch for like 3 weeks fatigue! Along with the moodiness, lack of desire or energy to do anything. I mistook that for disinterest in daily life and not enjoying activities, which would be a big part of depression for me. Now, Im too young for menopause, i have had bouts of depression. But this is different.Which brings me to what could explain all this? Let me state for the record that I DID NOT put all the pieces together until last week Saturday(conference saturday). I would also like to enter into evidence that I never had a positive preggo test! Nope, not one.......until last saturday. So, turns out that, yup you guessed it! Im preggy! YAY!! Im excited! I feel kinda dumb that I didnt put it all together. But alas, its not as bad as I was thinking. I was thinking that I could possibly be like 12-14 weeks pregnant and missed the whole first trimester. That would have been awesome, now that I think about it. I totally could have been one of those gals that didnt know she was pregnant 'til she delivered in the toilet thinking that was one big poop. no, probly not seeing that my pants are already too tight! So i went to see my trusty gyno, Dr. Colby. Hes not everyones cup of tea but hes a fantastic doctor and I respect him alot. Ya know, its so weird to work with your ob/gyn knowing that hes seen my forbidden fruits. Its even weirder delivering a baby on the floor that you worked on. uh huh i had kelty at pioneer....and i worked labor and delivery so i totally knew everyone there. they made it awesome and i would do it again if my doc would let me. anywho.......dr. colby did an ultra sound(thank heaven it wasnt trans-vaginal) and it revealed that i was only 6 weeks along. whew! i didnt miss the whole first trimester. but my last period was at the beginning of january so you can see where i would have gotten the 12-14 weeks. it was a nice first appointment. they made me pee in a cup, like every freakin time i go to the doc! I hate peeing in cups! for some reason it really grosses me out! I always think Im gonna get it on my hands. I know, I know, after seeing what I do for money(at work) i shouldnt be worried about getting my own pee on my hands. The best part of this whole appointment was that dr. colby didnt do the part I was dreading! YAY! nope, it wasnt the pap smear cuz he did that along with a full vaggy-xam(vaginal exam). I was praying that he wouldnt do a breast exam! and to my lovely suprise, he didnt! Let me explain, I always shower, like a full on hour long shower before going to the gyno. Full on-taking off the dermis- scrub down before going to the gyno. I am such a weirdo about it. Dude, I have to see this guy at work. I aint going to be leaving any lasting(or wafting) impressions if you get my drift. So, my point is I hate having the breast exam because he makes you lay flat on the table, nude from the waste up and he jiggles. No, he doesnt jiggle, he jiggles me. And he checks the lymph nodes in the pits. Im pretty ticklish and i always end up busting out in a belly laugh when he jiggles my pits. The first time it happened he was laughing so hard he had to stop. Thus, deep scaring emberassment. And I am ashamed to say that this has happened on more than on occassion. Im sure he remembers this and maybe thats why he didnt do the breast exam. Maybe hes just waiting for Jay to come so they can laugh at me together. I digress, it was a nice first appointment. I go back in 2 weeks to see if theres more than one in there and to see if we can get some heart tones on the doplar.....fetus is too young to hear the heart tones this week. I am soooooo excited! The Lord must have heard me when I offered my crib to a friend at work....she didnt need it. Whew, I know! Such a crazy world this is. But Im happy and grateful to be having more than one! 6 weeks and counting!